Wednesday, April 1, 2009

37 Weeks

Tomorrow morning I go in to have an amnio to check for lung maturity.  If the results show that her lungs are mature, we have a c-section scheduled for Friday morning.  I have been told that the chances of her lungs not being mature are low, and I have been told if they do find them immature then it is better to wait.

As much as I don't want my daughter to be born with respiratory problems, the reality is that very very few babies die of this at 37 weeks.  I will be 37 weeks and 4 days on Friday, and it is time for this little girl to come out.   In my mind, she is better off out here (even if that means a few days in the NICU) than inside me after 38 weeks.  

I have nightmares of them sending me home tomorrow and telling me that I have to wait another week. Waiting another week means waiting until 38 weeks and 3 days, the same time that Julia was born.  Getting her out now would be fine...people go into labor at 37 1/2 weeks all the time.

Josh and I have both been getting encouraging emails from people, and they are appreciated.  But it is hard to hear people tell us that they know everything is going to be okay- because they don't.  Nothing is going to be okay for us until we are holding our healthy, living daughter in our arms.   The possibility of that not happening again is always on our minds.


6 comments:

caitsmom said...

Thinking of you and your family. Sending lots of love and hope. Peace.

Rachel said...

Praying you hear good news after the appt. And I hear you loud and clear!

Amy said...

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. I hope her lungs are nice and strong. Sending love and courage.

Lenny said...

Good luck with everything this week! Anna and I wish that everything goes textbook-simple for you and your little girl on Friday. You're in our thoughts and prayers.

Meredith said...

Best to you and Josh -- I've been thinking about you and trying to send lots of positive energy your way.

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