Today at school I told my whole cohort about you-all 88 of them! I was really nervous, but everyone was sharing things about their lives and I just couldn't share another thing without telling them about you. I am excited to finally get to talk about my baby girl with more people.
Today I was watching "Jon & Kate Plus 8" and the sextuplets were turning four. Usually this show doesn't make me feel sad, but their mom started talking about how all of them were turning into little people with opinions and personalities. So far, I have just thought of you as a baby. You would have been growing and changing but you would still be a baby. Thinking of you as a little girl reminds me once again of what I am missing.
When you left us we lost our baby girl but also the life we were supposed to have. For the rest of my life I will think about what should have been. But I also know that you will never be forgotten.
Feeling hopeful tonight.
2 comments:
Our lives are forever changed without our children here. They will be missed at every occassion, every holiday, every birthday.... and our minds will always be filled with the "what if" questions and "supposed to be" statements. Life is so unfair. But, you are right, Julia will never be forgotten.
Lots of hugs....
rFrom Dad. I love you both. Always feel free to talk to us about Julia. And we will be in NYC when you next give birth. We're retired, as you've probably heard us mention once or twice, so perhaps renting an apartment for a month or so on Sutton Place would be nice(more likely in New Jersey if I continue to follow Josh'sadvice in the market). Love Dad
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